"My body is not a democracy. My body is an empire and I am it's dictator. You do not get a vote. There will be no coup d'etat. Rebel forces will not overthrow me. I am in charge of it forever." - X
Growing up in a thin family, it was always demonstrated that being overweight was something to keep hush, or to laugh at. My dad would make comments about women's bodies in front of me as if it was his place to pass judgement. My mum dieted strenuously to lose her baby weight and all the magazines had diet after diet before a long article on Charlotte Church's body 'ballooning' from a size 8 to 16.
I've hated my body from the moment I was fully aware of it as a teen. I have dieted for six years with little success. I've finally reached my limit and I figure if I can't change my body I shall change my view on it. My boyfriend said to me recently that size didn't matter to him, he only encouraged my dieting so that I'd be happy. This was news to me! I realised after some soul searching, that I was dieting to change other people's opinions of me, not for myself. With the help of some amazing body confidence blogs like Gabi Fresh, Girl With Curves and Nicolette Mason, I've realised (only took me 22 years) that I deserve to be confident and happy.
I've decided I'm going to stop waiting until I'm thin to let myself be content, because that day may never happen. I'm slowly learning to accept my figure and work with it, which means not being ashamed to say my size in the shop dressing rooms, or picking myself apart in front of friends. I basically need to quit that shit, it's not fair to me or other women who share my size, or my future daughter who will watch me hide my body like it's a secret.
I am more than my body. And I promise not to spend one more moment of my time on this earth disliking it. Life is too damn short.
"Fuck hiding 'problem areas' on your body. Your body is not a problem."
"I don't believe in guilty pleasures. If you fucking like something, like it."